My husband had a few friends over a few months ago. My son was snuggly tucked away in bed and I was like, cool, I’ll rent something and watch a chick flick! I usually get a little munchy when I watch something, and I remembered that the guys had some chili upstairs. I proceeded to get some along with a few chips on the side. Now this is my idea of a girl’s night in—introvert style of course! But even after I devoured that excessive amount of chili, I was still ravenous, so I continued to indulge in additional snacks. But I was still hungry and started thinking to myself, “What is going on?” This was absolutely insane! I started having serious flashbacks to when I was pregnant, that’s how abnormal this situation was. I ended up getting another bowl of chili and some other snacks that just would not satisfy! Right when I was preparing my second bowl of chili—while trying to not think about the fact I was cheating on my healthy eating lifestyle—it hit me like a ton of bricks: I literally did not spend any time with God that day!
Okay, okay, stay with me here for a moment. I promise you, this will make sense in a minute! So, that particular day was a bit hectic. I woke up to prepare for my 5k trail run race scheduled I believed at 10 am, but when I checked the schedule, it was actually for 9 am. I had awoken later than I usually do, so I was rushing around trying to get ready, so my usual God-time that morning never occurred. The rest of the day was a blur, with spending time with my son, taking him to the park along with everything else, I hadn’t taken a break to sit in God’s Presence and to pray and worship and to simply be. By the end of the day, my soul was famished.
My body was signaling that I needed something and I was hungry for something. My mind was convinced it was food and water, but all the while I was never really hungry except for God Himself! Because I was feeding the wrong beast, no matter how much I consumed, it wouldn’t and couldn’t satisfy!
As soon as this hit me, I turned everything off and gave myself to God. There was absolute peace and fulfilment in my soul.
I want to encourage you with this that the next time you are doing something and it’s not satisfying, when you are running and running and doing and going and watching and buying and eating and scrolling with no fulfillment, take a moment to ask yourself: “When was the last time, moment, minute, day, I gave myself to God? Does my soul need filling from the Fountain of Life?”
